We’re doing wrong to each other, and you know this too, that I’m better without you! So don’t try to hold me back, I’m taking back all the love I gave you, it’s about time I erase you.
Oh dear, I seriously need help with my mental up & down. If I can feel happy in the morning then the next thing that my mind goes through would probably sadness. Even I can’t control it, just let it passed right through me like a wind. But if a wind can come and go, those moments might not leave me completely. It’s more like they try to linger around me, suffocate me and drawn me to the ocean of grief.
If you have been cut by a paper, you will know how the pain gradually increase as time goes by. Those dull moments are exactly like that, come to me without notice and make me feel like I’m not worth for everything. I’m suffering from a self-doubt moment, that is I’m bad, I’m terrible, I’m ugly, I’m stupid, I’m not good enough and I don’t deserve everything. I feel like I’m treating myself pretty bad and can’t let me enjoy a single moment of victory. I, indeed, can allow myself to relax and celebrate for achievement that my boss loves me, my social status are getting more privileged but I can’t do it. Here is the thing, I’m really afraid of letting my guard down because that’s when I’m in the most vulnerable position.And there is nothing more detrimental than let yourself enjoy the victory and see time pass by. I want to move, I want to experience and I want to keep improving myself. So with those tiresome moment coming by, I feel drained, I feel left out, I feel like the world won’t stop to take care of me…and this time, I feel lonely, with many things packed on my shoulder and no one here to give me a helping hand.
I really don’t like to stop there and feel pity for myself, I want to move on. But sometimes, close my eyes and let thoughts disappear in a minute could be a reward that I expect.
I would probably have no idea what to think about the “Lover” being with me today. As suggested by the image, I deeply crave for something personal and loving, like how these two people put each other at ease together. I love how the girl lean her back and enjoy every deepest moment passed among them. The feeling is intense and suffocated to me (Trust me, I know how suffocating it was when you in a position like that :D), I feel like my heart beats in an fastest beat that even I can’t control, my breath starts to be disappear and I can’t know where I’m standing on this Earth. Yes, I do wish to taste this feeling again when I see this card. But yeah, staying together with the “lover” are three fire cards, 2 Wands, Temperance, and The Knight of Wands.It definitely not a good day for romance as these cards indicate to me a very strong passion and drive towards a creative rush for a project or new interest. But yeah, I still wish to have a very charming, strong and assertive person like that Knight of Wands that came and sweep off my feet :”>, bring me to a new place of excitement and sexual desires that I’ve never been before.
Củ cải rất ghét mì tôm, nó gặp mì tôm ở đâu là quánh ở đó. 1 ngày đẹp trời nọ, củ cải gặp mì spaghetti, nó nhào vô quánh mì spaghetti. Mì spaghetti ấm ức hỏi: Sao mày đánh tao? Củ cải trả lời: Ê mì tôm, mày tưởng mày duỗi tóc tao nhận ko ra mày hả mạy? (st)
Wow, the Lover is finnally be here. I know that it not actually refer to the idea of being “in love”, but I can’t resist the idea of feeling like a charming person will appear and sweep off my feets. Well, I truly don’t have any charming person that come and get down on their knees to say some special things to me, but I do have some kind of good relationship today. I love it when my boss becomes less aggressive towards me and she starts to appreciate my work efforts, I think it is about time that the Lovers and Hanged Man coming with full forces.
The delay now stops being restricted to me as I’m more familiar with my job and comfortable to put my everything to work. Oh yeah, I will try not to be proud of everything as the 5 of Swords indicates the danger of being very self-centered…No, I would probably do my way, and at the same time care of everyone around me. I don’t want to become a cold heart anymore. I need people, and I need cooperation :).